Flaw- Recognize

"Recognize"

Well I've had enough
Of these selfish crimes
I hurt myself again
Not knowing why
It seems so easy
To leave it all behind
And avoid the truth I think I'd rather just go blind

Then everything erupts
My life has come unglued
And the ties that bind have left me
What am I to do?

Can't seem to recognize
That stare behind those eyes
Who is this man I see?
Who's looking back at me?
Can't focus through the pain
And I am fading into nothing?
The reflection must get clearer

I think I'm cracking up
Like I've lost my mind
I hurt myself again
Still don't know why
I end up the same way
Each and every time
I can't avoid the truth
Theres just nowhere to run and hide

Then everything erupts
Just like I knew it would
I'm down here on and off
It never felt that good
Is this what I've become
My life has come unglued
And the ties that bind have left me
What am I to do?

Can't seem to recognize
That stare behind those eyes
Who is this man I see?
Who's looking back at me?
Can't focus through the pain
And I am fading into nothing?
The reflection must get clearer than it appears to be right now

There must be someone I can see....
Theres gotta be something for me
Show it now, let it go free
I know it's there waiting on me
Let it out, let it go free

Can't seem to recognize
That stare behind those eyes
Who is this man I see?
Who's looking back at me?
Can't focus through the pain
And I am fading into nothing
The reflection must get clearer

Goo Goo Dolls-Slide

Could you whisper in my ear
The things you wanna feel
I'll give you anything
To feel it comin'

Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are
You live with all your faults

Chorus:
I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide

Yeah we're gonna let it, slide

Don't you love the life you killed
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall
Your ma disowned you

Don't suppose I'll ever know
What it means to be a man
Something I can't change
I'll live around it

Chorus

And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you wanna get married
Or run away

And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you wanna get married
Or run away

Chorus
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I ruv roo baby

Al Green- Just the Two of Us

I see the crystal raindrops fall
And the beauty of it all
when the sun comes shining through
To make those rainbows in my mind
When I think of you some time
And I want to spend some time with you

CHORUS:
Just the two of us
We can make it if we try
Just the two of us
Just the two of us
Building castles in the sky
Just the two of us
You and I
We look for love, no time for tears
Wasted waters's all that is
And it don't make no flowers grow
Good things might come to those who wait
Not to those who wait to late
We got to go for all we know

CHORUS

I hear the crystal raindrops fall
On the window down the hall
And it becomes the morning dew
Darling, when the morning comes
And I see the morning sun
I want to be the one with you

Just the two of us
We can make it if we try
Just the two of us
Just the two of us
Building big castles way on high
Just the two of us
You and I
Just the two of us
Let's get together, baby
Just the two of usWe can make it
Just the two of us
We can make it
Just the two of us
Just the two of us we can make it


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Les Miserables-Castle on a cloud

COSETTE:
There is a castle on a cloud,
I like to go there in my sleep
,
Aren't any floors for me to sweep,
Not in my castle on a cloud.

There is a room that's full of toys
,
There are a hundred girls and boys,
Nobody shouts or talks too loud,
Not in my castle on a cloud.

There is a lady all in white,
Holds me and sings a lullaby,
She's nice to see and she's soft to touch,
She says,

Tpain

Got the body of a goddess
Got eyes butter pecan brown I see you girl
Droppin Low
She Comin Down from the ceiling
To tha floo
Yea She Know what she doin
Yea yea yea
She doin that right thang
Yea yea yea yea ea
I Need to get her over to my crib and do that night thang

05-12-01

I love you momma.
I miss you more than I ever thought possible.
I have pushed away your memories for so long.
The pain has been unbearable.
I want to start over.
I think of you everyday.
You made me who I am.
Kind gentle and loving.
I will never forget that about you.
Hard-ass personality.
Amazing provider, friend, and mother.
Today I will not mourn the loss of your life.
But celebrate it and all that it meant.
I love you.

random thoughts

Mothers day is tomorrow... just another day... right?  It should be.  I bought my aunt a gift... flowers.  She hates flowers.  I know she'll just complain that I bought her another plant.... but she keeps killing the others.  So I have to keep buying her more.  Thats my theory.

So tonight my aunt and uncle decided to put in Passion of the Christ after I said " I wanna watch Twister..." can you guess who won, my uncle. Of course.  Right before the movie started I said, "Movie spoiler.... jesus dies, can we watch twister now?"   My aunt laughed for about 10 minutes.  And said that was the best line she has heard out of me in a while.  Usually I just give in and let my uncle do what he wants.  But tonight I put up a bit of a fight.... through sarcasm.  So after failing miserably and watching half of the movie I didn't want to see.  I started off to bed.  My aunt said.. "WAIT there is a surprise ending!"  I replied... "Oh yes, I forgot, he gets up after being crucified and lives to tell the story."  She laughed.  I went to be.

On another note, Jen stood me up today.  I believe for her ex gf.  Which is fine.  I really dont care.  I am just pissed at being there for someone who doesnt give two shits about me.  I dont wanna be home.  I dont wanna be in my room at 11:14pm writing about pointless stuff that doesnt matter.

On a better note... I visited my job for the summer.  Took me 1 hr and 45 min to get there and 2.15 hours to get home.  I got lost.  Opps.   Anyway... my first day there I got to hold two juvenile painted turtles.  They were about the size of a half dollar.   Very cute.  And the camp director is hot.  Hah.  I am going to like camp.  The view is gorgeous.  Even though I am sleeping on a platform tent.  I will upload a picture of it next to this blog after I finish typing.  I think I will fit in well there.  Only problem is..... I get one day off a week.  5:30pm to 5:30pm.  How am I suppose to visit anyone in that amount of time.  It takes 4.5 hours to get from camp to Orono.  I would spend 80% of the time off traveling and sleeping.  WTF.  I can tell this summer is going to be miserable for my social life.  I asked her if i could combine my days off so I could visit a friend in the summer.  She said unfortunately no.  Only if you have a wedding or family emergency.  She said her and I can talk about it later.  She might be able to do one weekend off for the entire summer.  =(  Major bummer.  I almost burst into tears when she said that.  Enough complaining from me for now.... wana see where i am living this summer?

This is the platform.....

 

This is the tent....

I miss you btw.  You know who you are.  I wish we couldve spent more time together before summer break.  I wish we would have more time together over the summer... I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me.  Pretending you are down the street isnt working as well as I had originally hoped.  I wish I could hold you again.  I know you know how I feel.  I just dont want you to forget that. <3>

Watching you from across the room, eyes bright and full of life. Lips perfect, I dream of kissing them once more. Your dark features are visible from a ways away. Singing along to "Can You Feel the Love Tonight." I can only think of how much I love you. "What?" you ask. I just cant stop staring at you. You are beautiful. I think you were born in the 70's with some of the music you like. All the expressions your face makes, I love them all. You look up at me and my heart beats faster. I am happiest waking up next to you in the morning and going to sleep next to you at night. I am in love with you.

<3