Scattered thoughts and delusions about what this life is suppose to be has left me speechless beyond my normal recognition.  Its true that I dont try as hard as I could.  It seems like so much effort just to get an A on a report or quiz.  With all the money that goes into a piece of paper that says I am qualified to handle an animal is rather ridiculous.  I am somewhat fed up with all the effort one must put it.  And I know I could never make it onto the deans list.  I have tried really hard but never actually made it.  I wish I could.  That would make me very happy.

As it turns out, the class I thought would be the easiest, has become the hardest.  Who would've thought that ceramics required so much structural and intellectual discipline.  Rather disappointing indeed.