My current situation

So I bought a new computer, Macbook.  It is wonderful.  I have never owned anything so expensive in my life and to hold something that I mostly bought, my aunt helped me pay for taxes on it and such, is really important to me.  When buying it this morning I was nauseous.  I was terrified to spend that much money.  But I did it.... surprisingly.  I can only imagine what I will be like when I buy my first car, or move into my first apartment..... my first house... oh poo I have a lot to learn.

I am chilling at my friends apartment, typing away.  She is really great.   Perfect smile.  Really soft skin, and a heart made of pure gold. *sigh*  I only wish she knew that.  Maybe I can show her.  We shall see. 

I feel like school is going okay.  I have three things due this week, none of which i have done, but I know i will get them all done.  I like to procrastinate because my work is always ten time better when I am rushed (besides the spelling) but I seem to get A's when I rush and D's when I take my time and work really hard on it.  I think I am broken.  Hah.   I dont know why I write on this blog, no one reads what I write anyway.   I think I just like getting things out.

Most people don't understand me, or what makes me tick.  I honestly don't have a clue most of the time.  I just go.  Don't think, don't trust, just do it.  I like it this way..... for now.