I'm not gonna react
I'm not doin' shit for you.
I'm not sittin' around while you are tearin' it down around us.
I'm not livin' a lie while you swim in denial
'Cause you're already dead and gone
You leave me out on the curb just like everyone else before you.
Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone.
Another lesson burned
And I'm drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world
I don't care what you think I'm not seeing a shrink.
I'm not doing this again.
I'm not another student or a mother to take your shit out on
So let's see what you got, let's see what you're not
And what ever else you pretend
You've defended my intentions long enough
Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone.
Another lesson burned
And I'm drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world
So here I am again.
In the middle of the end.
And the choice I wish I made
I always make too late
Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone.
Another lesson burned
And I'm drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world.
My world
My world (welcome to my world)
My world
My world (welcome to my world)
My world
Welcome baby.
I think this explains me the best. Insecurity, self loathing, every inch of my fiber hates the rest. Pathetic I know, but I don't know what else to do to even slightly enjoy my own company. Alone. Another lesson burned. And I am drowning in the ashes. I will just fake the smile when i look in the mirror, that seems to be working well.
I disagree when someone says, "You can't love someone entirely without loving yourself." When I care about someone, my whole body feels it. I move differently, my smile is pure and if anyone has ever seen my eyes, they say it all. I can love without loving myself. Maybe I will grow stronger and begin to like me, but until that day, people have to learn that I am me. Whether they like it or not.
Welcome.
To.
My.
World.
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